12.03.2008

Awake


This is Jamie, a very rare contributor to Hazel's blog but you'll see why I am writing in a minute. The OR was backed up so they didn't take her down until 6 o'clock -- but she just came back up breathing on her own, no breathing tube, and a new feeding tube, and crying a really raspy cry. I am writing because Amanda is in bed cuddling with a very fussy (and now sleeping) Hazel. 

She is not out of the woods yet, and she is going to have a long road before she is as good as new, but this will be a really big step for her if she manages to keep from getting reintubated tonight! It is such a relief to be able to hold her in my arms again -- I held her pretty much the entire day Wednesday before her surgery, then they took her away and I have barely been able to touch her since. 

Thank you to everyone all over the country and world who have been sending us prayers and positive thoughts -- this isn't exactly a controlled experiment and correlation isn't the same thing as causation, but her improvements are highly correlated with all of her wellwishers. We are grateful for your continued support as Hazel gets ready to take on her next step in this ordeal (not even sure what that is yet, I've been so focused on getting her breathing on her own.)

What a beautiful, shrimpy little cry I am hearing.

28 comments:

emily said...

I have just come across your blog through a friend of mine. I am so sorry your family has had to go through this. That little girl is certainly a fighter and she has two fighter's for parents. Please know that though I have never met you you are definately in my thoughts. Hug that little girl and take in every sound she makes! I will remember your cautions about those batteries...it is one of those life dangers that I would have never thought of. Thank you.

Chelsea said...

Thank you so much for the update, I've been thinking about her all week, and looking forward to some good news. God bless your little family, you have a very special little girl there.

Anonymous said...

My prayers are with your amazing Hazel.
My daughter takes care of Noli and has kept me up to date with this horrific journey that you are on. Stay strong!!!

Anonymous said...

I am so happy she is breathing on her own! May it continue and her little body heal. Continued prayers coming your way.

*Maru said...

Dear Jamie and Amanda. I got here from a friend's blog and I can't stop crying and praying for Hazel's life. I am from Caracas, Venezuela and now I am living in Miami, FL. I will place an Spanish written post in my blog to reach more and more good hearts to pray for her... Be Strong. Your daughter needs all your strenghts. My thoughts and prayers are with you both.
With my warmest regards,
Maria

Anonymous said...

I just came across this blog through a friend. As a parent of a toddler, my heart is with you both and with Hazel. I will be reading your blog and looking forward to more good news.

Anonymous said...

I'm so glad to hear of this great progress! I've been thinking about you all afternoon, just hoping for some good news. Stay strong, everyone. Hazel, keep healing. You are a strong little girl!

Little Miss Maia said...

How awesome of you to take the time to update us tonight Jamie. I am so, so glad to hear that Hazel is breathing on her own and that her mama is able to cuddle with her tonight. I hope the road from here is smooth and easy. Hugs to you all.

Anonymous said...

i cant even tell you how happy i am!!!!!! soooooooooo glad to hear it went ok. love on her!!!!!! HUGS!

Anonymous said...

Our family's prayers are with you. As a mother to two little girls, my heart aches for you. Sweet Hazel, we look forward to hearing about more of your beautiful little cries. God bless you all.

GoofyGirl said...

My thoughts have not left Hazel's side for quite a while, and they will remain in place... along with love and the most heart felt wishes for this to soon all be nothing but "in the past." Just knowing all three of you might very well get some peace soon is so beyond enough for me to have a goofy grin plastered on my face. Much love.

AlePancha said...

Oh Jamie! How good to have these news!
You would not believe what i felt when I saw those pictures of Amanda cuddling with your beautiful little daughter, I can only imagine what you guys are feeling now. Our thoughts and prayers for her recovery. We are hoping she will only improve and beat all odds. She's such a fighter.
We love u guys. We are thinking of you and keep on praying.

Unknown said...

Thank you for the update! I am so happy that you all are hearing baby Hazel's shrimpy, amazing and beautiful cry. This is an amazing photo, Amanda you are the best protector Hazel could every ask for (you too Jamie)!! May a healing light continue to help you all through this.
I will be thinking and praying you have a breath filled evening, without tubes.

Anonymous said...

We are wishing Hazel a very speedy recovery all the way from Victoria, BC Canada. May you she feel your strength and love as she begins her healing journey. May you also both continue to have the strength to get through the days ahead. We will be sending prayers your way.

Pam, Mike & Luke

Anonymous said...

Jamie,
Thanks so much for your update. I am so happy you are able to cuddle with Hazel and hear her cries again. I have been thinking of you guys nonstop over the past week. Please give her a big kiss from all the February Babyfit moms!!!
-julie

traci said...

just read your story and wanted to say that i'll be sending all the good thoughts i can possibly muster for your family and your lovely daughter. this is so upsetting to read let alone go through and i can wish you much hope and strength.

heather said...

Steve's kept me up to date and I've been praying for you guys. I'm glad things have turned a corner for you all. I know someday Sofia will get to meet her. Give her an extra snuggle from the other side of the country.

*Maru said...

Jamie, Am. This will be a long night. But hopefully, tomorrow, We will have great news about Hazel. Best Wishes and love. God Bless you

Jaymee said...

Hazel, You are such a strong little girl. Enjoy snuggeling with your momma and daddy, they love you more than you can ever imagine. We all love you very much.

Amanda and Jamie, Our thoughts are with you, now and always. We have never met you Jamie, but anyone who loves Amanda this much is part of our family. All our love.

Cornelia Read said...

So so happy to hear this good news, and sending you guys lots of love and hugs from California. You must be so so tired!

<3 <3 <3 sideways hearts,

Cornelia

Lisa Emrich said...

That's such great news!!! May the progress continue!

Jennifer Merkel said...

We are keeping Hazel and your whole family in prayer. My family will be praying for your little one. God Bless you all.

Anonymous said...

God bless little Hazel and your family. I can't imagine what the past few days have been like for all of you. I am holding you in my thoughts and prayers and last night held my son a little longer than usual and felt more gratitude for him than I thought ever possible. Please please take care of yourselves as much as you are able.

Dee2 said...

I pray your little one continues to grow better and better quickly. I just found your story through a friend on BabyFit and I plan to immediately go tape down my batteries. Love to you and your family. dee dee

Samantha said...

Glad she's doing better. I'll continue to keep you guys in my thoughts and prayers.

Samantha and Beatrice

Anonymous said...

Hello,
I learned of your story from an online forum.

As a mother of a 1 year-old, my heart breaks for you. I cannot imagine the anxiety and distress you are going through.

I am praying for your strength and Hazel's health through this ordeal. My thoughts are with you and I can't wait to read the post that says Hazel is out of the woods. With so many people praying for Hazel, it WILL happen, She will recover and be well again.

(((hugs))))

Anonymous said...

I do not know you, but I have been keeping up with the updates on Hazel's condition. I am praying for your little girl and everyone in your family. As a mother of a son just a bit older than Hazel, I cannot begin to imagine the worry and fear you must be feeling. I hope all the kind thoughts and prayers lend at least a bit of comfort during this difficult time. Thank you for sharing your story!

Christie said...

Yea! So glad to hear little Miss Hazel is breathing on her own. What fantastic news. Our thoughts continue to be with you during this time.

(I came to hear your story through a friend of a friend of a friend...)