I figured I owed everyone an update about whats going on. I had my brain scan, and spoke with my neurologist the following morning. He unfortunately said that my scan is "very abnormal" with "significant non-specific damage to the white matter" in both hemispheres. My brain has scars all over it. My neurologist said that multiple sclerosis is his first thought right now. I am scheduled for a cervical spine MRI on Sunday morning, and I'm in the hospital all day Tuesday for a lumbar puncture. The lumbar puncture will rule out about a billion viruses, and will rule in MS, if in fact that is whats going on. The c-spine scan will survey the extent of the damage to my spinal cord so far.
I'm scared. I'm depressed. I can't stand even looking at Hazel right now. I'm pissed that I only had six healthy months daydreaming about our future together before everything fell apart. I don't really want to talk about it beyond that. I will continue to update here as we find out more information, but this is a very dark time for my family. Thank you to everyone for your continued thoughts, prayers, good vibes, and wishes. Keep sending us strength and health. We need it.